Architect don't take my post wrong... i enjoy what i do almost a much as life itself, and i've worked extremely hard to get everything i have
but i was just saying, that not everyone has the kinda dedication that people like myself take ... so many people when things get hard will run a mile. Or when they can't figure something out they'll sit there and say "oh well i've worked my contracted hours, i'm going home"
because although you can do that, that is not the trait of those who wish to do well.
i mean over the past year i've calmed down alot from working like 8-9hrs at work (atleast), comming home and checking the forums ... and getting on with a few pet projects. To me it is a dream that i get payed to achieve what i love to do - but to me, there are no real bad parts to development. If i'm programming i'll sit there and unless i'm strapped for time i'll do my damn'dest to figure out what the problem is - sure it piss's me off that it doesn't work, but just because something doesn't work exactly how i want it to doesn't mean i should scream "bug" and give up. It just means i've gotta rely on more than just my memories of howto program and start thinking about the work i'm doing more closely and logically
same goes for 3D ... god sometimes i could just scream at ChilliSkinner and alike for pissing me about for hours, but when i look back at wasting those hours there is no regret about it, because i've learn what Chilli will and won't do. And although at the time i seem stressed and annoyed with it, i'm having more fun thinking my way around it because for me the greatest satifaction is to work ages on something which i can't figure out .. and in that moment of the breakthrough when everything falls together - THAT right there is one of the greatest feelings you can imagine.
The best thing i can think of is seeing something that i've concieved, right there infront of me ... if i can imagine it and go onto make it, i can't think of a better high. Might just be me, but that is a far better and longer lasting feeling than any of the drugs and alcohol anyone will take, because everytime you look back at it no matter how many times you get that exact same feeling of acomplishment.
This whole industry is about the attitude you come in with really ... if you think your fancy degree's will get you far, you will never get great. It's that level of dedication that if any of you doubt should just look at the product that you are all using, because DarkBasic is a product made from that same dedication and determination
When you have that, there is nothing you cannot accomplish - and there is no book in the universe that can teach you howto do that.
if you don't find yourself sitting there letting your mind wander and all of a sudden you think of a way to improve something you've worked on. Then you'll never become the likes of Sid Meir, John Carmack or Peter Moylonex.
seriously a social life to a developer is just a joke, as you'll find even when your out, your with your mates, having a laugh ... suddenly you'll get an idea in your head like "damn if i only cross product the opposing vertex and use a Tangent on the Z axis i can get the exact vector for the lights projection for that bump mapping" - and from then on until you know that you've stored that info somewhere that will be ALL you think about.
I mean alot of people believe this is obsessive behaviour, but you find its only in jobs that people really love that they end up thinking of them all the time. It's like with anything - if its on your mind 24/7 then its a marmite situation
(you either love it or hate it)
even when i was working as a Teaboy for a major developer, i still had alot of fun - just cause i had to go down to Costa or Starbucks every hour or so, make sure everyones files were in order, make sure people know when things were, etc... i still thoroughly enjoyed myself, because just being there and sitting at a terminal - i'd plod something out and help out where i could, learn new things. I mean my actual jobs have to be some of the most boring chores in the world, but still being around it all and picking up what i did - watching how everyone worked flat out to get titles off the shop floor within the time limit ... it was cool
but this isn't for everyone, and perhaps the lessons learnt now about development are those learnt wisely ... because first rule of development is there is always another way
if you can't see it then you don't really know the problem yet (^_^) probably the most true statment you'll ever know, because if you don't fully understand the problem how can you fully think a way to develop a solution?
if anyone tells you that dedication is just staying up late and working on a problem, tell them they're an idiot ... why? because the mind works best when refreshed, if you can't figure something out and your tired ... grab a few hours kip, and believe me the problem won't seem as daunting. That is what dedication is, being able to focus on a single issue until it is fixxed
Ahh being a stuborn bastard has its advantages somedays eh?
well i've wasted alot of everyones time here ... and i'm still kinda sleepy, but i want to finish Rose's stuff - its important to me that i do
Tsu'va Oni Ni Jyuuko Fiori Sei Tau!
One block follows the suit ... the whole suit of blocks is the path ... what have you found?
