I've decided to post this most likely because I'm in a very low mood.
This is not about my beliefs concerning religion. I have too many of them and I could probably, like many of you, write a book about it. All I'm going to say is that I'm almost seventeen. I was a Christian for the first sixteen years of my life before I finally "woke up" - or perhaps "died", to a lot of you.
Where I'm going with this is that there is a huge conflict that I see between my Mom and I. Two weeks ago, someone wanted to switch hours with me at Wendy's because they were going away for the day. Being a nice guy (that I think I am) and needing the hours, I accepted. The hours? Seven in the morning to two o'clock. On a Sunday. My Mom seemed fine with it.
Last week, I came home from an eight hour shift on Saturday. While at work I found out my friend John hadn't seen the first two
Lord of the Rings movies. Because I knew he'd like it (and I wanted him to go see the third one with me), we decided to rent the first two and watch them that night. Also, I would just sleep over at his house. Naturally I asked my Mom's permission to do so beforehand. Again, she was fine with it. While in the shower, she came in to the bathroom and asked, "So does this mean you aren't going to church tomorrow?" I replied. "Yes." She said something along the lines of "You guys disappoint me" and walked out, closing the door loudly behind her.
I suppose before continuing I need to back up. The reason she said "You guys" instead of "you" is because I'm a twin. My brother is in nearly the same situation I am. He is not a Christian. He doesn't like to go to church either. As far as his story about "losing his faith", don't ask me. I don't know, and that's up to him to talk about. Furthermore, don't assume I'm not a Christian because he's not or vice versa. I didn't discover until about four months after "losing my faith" that he also had "lost his faith". Additionally, she has known for a while that I am not a Christian. When she found out, she gave me the whole "So if you were to die today, what would happen to your soul" BS. Trying to scare me into Christianity. I hate it.
Back to the story. Tonight while at the dinner table, she said "You guys are going to stop making plans for Saturday night and Sunday mornings and get back to going to church." We got into a small argument and her points, which, by the way, are not remotely valid, are "It is my responsibility as a parent to ensure that you get the proper religious upbringing", etc. I told her that going to church will not do anything for me. It was working out for the first sixteen years until I woke up. (Of course I didn't say that exacting thing, but you know.) She said something about instead of going to Sunday school, I should just go to church with her. I failed to see how this would make a difference and told her so. She told me that if I actually listened than eventually it would start to sink in. This pisses me off for two reasons. a) She assumes I don't listen in Sunday School, which is utter BS. I
do listen to their brainwashing crap, I have for the past sixteen years, and I'm SICK of it. Sometimes I just want to go insane, stand up, and tell them how ridiculous they are. b) You know what? In all the time that I was a Christian, I did let it "sink in". But you know what I DIDN'T let sink in?
Everyone else's point of view. I was a closed minded moron as far as I can see. Anyway, she also gave me the "well if you were to die today, what would happen to your soul" crap
again. She has no ground to stand on.
I could shoot her down so quickly with all the information I've gathered - with all the sides that I've heard (Christian and secular) - but I can't do it. She's a sensitive woman. Let's get one thing straight, I love my Mother, I just don't love her religion. In fact, I hate her religion, and I hate the fact that she's been brainwashed into it. That is the reason I can't argue. She'll cry because she thinks I'm a bad person. Does it piss me off? Hell yes. But I cannot stand seeing her cry. I really don't know what to say or do. I just really, REALLY needed to get that off my chest.
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