At the age of 11 I decided that I wanted to fully understand the Universe, and where we all came from. I am now 49, and 38 years of personal study took a route that I wasn't expecting. I came to the conclusion that a lot of science ended up backwards, and it was all due to a single word... attraction.
At 11 years old all I was able to do was examine nature. Take photographs, draw pictures, build model aircraft, bounce balls, examine friction. But in the back of my mind build up an overall picture of the invisible forces that were at work. When I first saw a computer at 17 I walked over to it, and stated programming it almost immediately. All I was doing was fixing some broken code for a friend, but I fixed it in less than 5 minutes. I know it was an easy solution, all he did was mistake an i for a 1, but it was exciting for me to solve something so quickly, and extra exciting to run the fix, and watch an Apollo rocket take off on the screen. I wanted to learn to program right away.
At 18 I had a computer, and also stated buying pop science books, and programming books. I typed in Hello World program, and changed it to Pincho, and then repeated it all over the screen, and then changed it to a rainbow of my name all over the screen. I was having a lot of pleasure from this experience. At that time I was also learning about the Big Bang, and attempting to read the Bible.
For some reason I got to Noah's Ark in the Bible, and could never get past it, it was too unbelievable. But the same thing happened when I got to the Big Bang. It didn't gel with me. I always considered the Big Bang to be a Pot Noodle of ready made physics. So I went to the cupboard, and got myself a Pot Noodle.
Anyway I decided that I wanted to work on computer games, and that was going to teach me how to create fake physics. By fake physics I mean instead of a gravity formula, I would just raise, and lower a jumping sprite by what looked right on the screen. This was where my childhood discoveries would have to be put on screen as close to the images in my head as possible. I was a good artist, I had good recollection of how things look, and move. The fake physics wouldn't be far off the real physics. It would be practice for the future, I wasn't interested in the mathematical versions of physics, I enjoyed trying to replicate them.
I eventually got AMOS. And this allowed my to create more realistic games, and more realistic fake physics. This got me work as a Graphic Artist for computer games. They saw my running animations, and that was all that they needed to see.
The big change in my life was when I first got told about Schrödinger's Cat, and Quantum Physics. I was 33. The guy lent me the book. Then I bought Schrödinger's Kittens, another book. The two slit experiment stuck in my mind. I still had accepted that I couldn't get round The Big Bang, I accepted that Einstein was a genius, I accepted that Newton was a genius. I looked up to all of the Genius that I read about. But if I could solve the two slit experiment, and get it to work with physics I could make myself feel better about this Big Bang Pot Noodle. I soon discovered that I couldn't get the standard model to work with the two slit experiment. I needed to start from scratch. The Big Bang had to go away.
I sat with my Amiga screen, and Deluxe Paint, the screen was black, and I wanted to create the universe from scratch. What would be the first thing in the Universe? I only had to start drawing at first, some sort of mechanics to get particles moving, and what particles could I start with? I must start with the least amount of physics possible, and I mustn't allow the particles to move unless I can figure out how they move. 3 years I sat at that black screen, each day turning the computer on, trying to draw something. How do you create motion from nothing?
3 years later, I had decided on two particles. I called them Black, and white. I wanted to create perpetual motion from a standing start, I couldn't get them to move. I had ideas of pendulum systems at first, but pendulums use a lot of physics, so again I would have a Pot Noodle of ready made physics. I wasn't going to allow that. Then I looked at Black, and White. I thought together they would make grey. They create each other by complimenting each other. Black on black may as well not exist at all, white on white may as well not exist at all. What is it about complementary system that helps them to work so well? Big requires small, + requires -. And then I thought +1 + -1 = 0. That was a major discovery for me.
The whole universe can be made from +1 + -1 = 0. because you have a zero starting point, and yet you have a complimentary system as well. + and -. So I don't need to draw Black, and White, I need to think about +1 and -1 instead. Now when I joined Black and White I got grey, but now with +1 + -1 I got invisible. Invisible is as close to nothing as I can get, and is better than The Big bang. All I need to do now is get this thing moving. How do you create motion from nothing part 2?
I figured that if the two complimentary particles equalled zero, I could have infinite particles, and they would still equal zero. So I allowed infinite particles... it wasn't a Pot Noodle, it was mathematically allowable. But now I had to think about their spread. The universe cannot have a choice in the spread of particles. There cannot be random distribution. Something about the distribution has to be complimentary, and also equal zero. Every Action Has An Equal And Opposite Reaction. This 3rd Law seemed to point to a distribution mechanism. If +1 has an equal and opposite reaction, then it is reacting with -1. This is a very compact spread of particles. In fact at every point in Spacetime the 3rd law must be working. I need to create tightly compact particle spreads which eliminate each other. What is scale? I thought. What is touch? I have infinite particles, they need to have scale. That's how you get the Universe moving from nothing, the scaling energy. As I worked on the spread, I realised that it would self emerge from Newtons Kissing Problem. 12 balls around 1 ball. To comply with Newton's 3rd Law, the Kissing Problem must also eliminate itself mathematically. Each action must have an opposite reaction. There are 12 particles around 1 particle, they must not have any mathematical advantage to one another. You have to space them equally, and I found that you can use a Trinary System to get the spacing.. +1 + -1 = 0. You eliminate them with a spacing of 3. And now Spacetime is invisible from all angles. And you have energy from scale, and you have Chaos from The Kissing Problem. Chaos is an extra ball that can never be fitted in The Kissing Problem. It is a gap. The gap creates a marginal error in a zero system. Where everything is complimentary, there is a gap that is not complimentary. With scaling energy, the gap allows some scaling chaos.
Newton's Kissing Problem eliminates particles to an invisible state. My +1 and my -1 are Mass, and Negative Mass. They are like a liquid with a bubble in it. The bubble moves easily through the liquid, but bumps other bubbles. The liquid moves easily past the bubbles, but bumps other liquid. +1 bumps +1, and -1 bumps -1. The Neutrino would be a -1 moving through mass +1. The actual mass values would be made up from combined particles. If the neutrino is made from 20 + 1 particles, and 30 - 1 particles it has a mass of -10, and it's -10 mass passes through positive mass. But the weight of the particles are taken from particles able to flow through the gaps in other particles. Gravity is mass moving through negative mass, and then bumping into more mass. weight is a flow force that threads through particles, and beads them like a necklace. So gravity flows down towards negative mass, which are like bubbles in a solid, and that pretty much sums up Electrons. But that makes Earth more of a bubble in space. Gravity moves towards the electrons. Earth becomes heavy with the flow force. Earth seems to be more solid due to the force because it's bubbles are full with energy. And so the Earth is not attracting an asteroid towards it. The asteroid is full of bubbles, the Earth is full of bubbles, and so the Gravity which is made from Spacetime bends into the bubbles because that is the area of least resistance. Energy moves towards lower energy, and Earth, and the Asteroid are the least resistant areas to move into. The Asteroid move towards the Earth in the flow of Spacetime energy. That's not attraction from the Earth, that's a local flow force that is everywhere.
And so I eliminated the Big Bang, and got physics all moving from nothing, and particles building up from Newtons Kissing Problem, and Gravity evolving itself, and all of physics, and maths self building. And now all I need to do is to program it.
